As my pulse from last night might have suggested, I did get to see Cody yesterday..but only for a few minutes.  Granted, those few minutes made my night.  I didn't have to work, but Cody did.  Dad and I went into the store for stamps, and Cody walks up to me with his face lighting up as he sees me, says "Hey!", envelops me in a big hug, and says he just went on break.  He stayed super close to me, and we just kept talking and laughing (the usual..but this time it felt more intimate) until dad was done.  Then we all walked out together and dad and Cody talked.  (I love that my parents love him, too!)  Then we talked some more in the parking lot, then he hugged me because we both had to go.  and I was left in my "OMG He's so amazing.. I love him so much.  *sighs and starts daydreaming*" mode.  He acts like my boyfriend... we act like a couple...  yet we haven't made it "official."  He's all I think about... and I miss him constantly.  I dream of him every night, too.  I don't know what to do.. I don't want to seem desperate..or pushy.. I don't want to run him off...I just care so much.  I really don't remember ever feeling like this.  I even brought him cupcakes for Halloween...  I was joking with mom about it, saying I wonder what he'd think if I wrote "Love Me" in icing.  I feel like Taylor Swift in the "You Belong With Me" video, where she holds up the "I Love You" sign.  I really am trying to keep myself in check, so that if things don't work out I won't be totally crushed.  As mom put it, she doesn't want to come home one night and have to pick me up from off the floor crying.  It's just really hard when he's so amazing.  I'm so over-analytical.  Sometimes I think he might actually be too good for me.  I hate when I get to thinking like that. 

Honestly, I just re-read all that.. and I feel like I should delete half of it because of how desperate I really do sound...  How am I so far gone?  and all because of a boy!  The only time I've felt this much, even somewhat to a degree, was with Mick...  but it's different with Cody.

Anyways, onto the date.  I previously posted the pictures from the date on a photoblog, HERE.

We met early (by my standards) in the morning..10:30.  He was wearing some awesome shades.  He looked super cool.  We got to talking and turns out he prepared for practically anything that could have happened on our outing.  I was thinking, "Wow..this is more consideration than I ever got from Joe, even in the 7 months we were dating."  He bought me a biking helmet with matching gloves, packed a picnic lunch, allergy medicine in case I needed it, and even a pair of sunglasses for me if I wanted them.  Oh, and a knife for protection (just in case), and assured me that if we ran into any trouble he would take care of it.

So, we get to the park...and this is where I start making a complete fool of myself.  I'm always clumsy, but apparently when I like someone the clumsiness factor amps up like 10 times the norm!  First, I put my helmet on backwards.  He looks at me and says, "I think it might fit better if you turned it around."  I wanted to DIE!  So I turn it around, and he asks me if it fits better.  I embarrassedly say, "yeah..."  Next, I couldn't even get the helmet on right.. like adjusted and clasped, so I had to look at him and say, "Help me."  I wanted to die, but gratefully he found this all to be totally cute.  There he is, right next to my face putting my helmet on and he smiles and says, "Just keeps getting better."  Turns out, I actually FORGOT how to ride a bike.  Granted, I haven't ridden one since I was 14.. but still.  He had to re-teach me.  To make everything worse, there was a group of bikers next to us having a great time laughing at ME.

Finally we actually get to start on the trails...  after awhile we find a nice picnic area and have our lunch that he made.  He had sandwiches, vitamin water for our drinks because he remembered me buying it on break at work, those little Babybel cheeses (which I love!), grapes and sugar pears.  Then he was all like, "I forgot the napkins!  I'm so unprepared."  I was like, "Cody!  No way were you unprepared."  We go on talking, and taking pictures.  We were next to a river and it was so beautiful!

Then my cell phone rang..I ignored it of course, but he commented on my ringtone.  "Gotta be somebody" by Nickelback.  Turns out we both love Nickelback!  Yay!  lol

We get back on the trails, talking about anything and everything.  We have so much in common and we just get each other.  We finish each others' sentences often.. and it just comes naturally.

We biked 10 miles... and were finally done.. feeling very accomplished.  He decided he didn't want the date to end yet, and suggested a movie.  Of course I accepted his offer!  I feel like I can't have enough time with him.. seriously.

We were out of town.. that's another thing, he lives in a different town then I do..but it's ok.  We were driving around, and he was telling me about how his family owns a lot of the town.  and he was like.. "and if you ever wanna watch fireworks we have a lot that we use for that" ..which reminds me.. a good sign, he kept saying next time.. and suggesting things for us to do later on... so I think he wants us to be together.. for awhile at least.

We were walking around main streeet and had a hilarious moment, that might just make us horrible people but its worth it..  You see, at one point driving around we were talking about go carts and how I had a pedal car when I was little.  He said that he thought they should make a mini-go cart that has horn that goes *MEEP MEEP* like the road runner, and we both thought that was awesome...  To make it even better, on main street we were walking up the hill when this old guy comes puttering along on this scooter that's bright orange... we both look at each other and just bust out laughing!!!  In between breaths he was like, "we are.. such.. horrible. people!"  and I was like, "but we have FUN!"  and it was a recurring thing, we'd get calmed down then a few minutes later we'd just burst out laughing about it again.

We went to a flea market too, where we were looking at these fake snakes to scare people with.  Cody says to the vendor, "Are these guaranteed to scare step-mothers?"  You see, he hates his step-mom.  It was kinda funny.. 

In a bit it was time for the movie.  We saw "The Vampire's Assistant," which was actually pretty awesome. 

After the movie we start heading back to meet my parents.  He takes a picture of me to show his dad, which I assume is a good sign.  Then he hugs me, like REALLY hugs me.. and we were so close.. like seriously.. our cheeks were touching! and it lasted a long time and I was totally loving it...  When we pulled away, he lingered and our faces were so close.. and he had that look.. and I could've sworn he was gonna kiss me...but he didn't.  :(

Then we took a picture together, and sat there on the tail-gate of his truck (technically his dad's truck..but still) and watched the sunset.  It was really romantic and sweet.. and I loved it.  Mom and dad pull up to pick me up and talk to Cody for awhile.  Then Cody gives me goodbye hug..  Overall, it was amazing.. even if he didn't kiss me.

I think he just isn't as experienced as I am...especially since he's younger than me, only by a year though.  Like I said.. he acts like my boyfriend.. and he's gotten friendlier since the date, so I'm hoping for the best.

I'm missing him like crazy... you see, in just a couple hours I'm leaving for Tennessee for a few days.  I'm going to visit Ashlie and just have fun.  I really don't know what I'm going to tell her about moving in, though.  I was gung-ho set on it until things started happening with Cody.  I don't want to leave while there's a chance for more with him.  I've pretty much repaired my reputation around town, and set things straight at work.  Things aren't so bad anymore.  I still hate this town.. and want to move..  but I don't want to leave Cody.  It would kill me to have a "what if" situation.  Especially when he's the one I've fallen the hardest for...even more than the man I was going to spend the rest of my life with.  Of course, that would be Joe.. and I use the term "man" very lightly.  Can you believe he won't even speak to me now?  He hasn't said a word to me since he found out I started going out with Cody.  He was annoying me every night after I broke up with him trying to get me to reminisce with him, and telling me how he still cared for me.. but that he still wanted the whole "being friends" thing to work out.  I just hope the Cody thing hasn't upset him too much... He has sort of a drinking problem.. and I would hate for him to do something stupid.  Mom says it would be sad if something did happen, but that I couldn't blame myself for his actions.  I don't know.. here's me overthinking things again.

I just need to go get myself to Tennessee and have fun enjoying my vacation.  No heavy thinking!

Ciao!    Lisa

I have very limited time right now, but here are a few pics from Sunday.  It was AMAZING!

-Lisa 

Last night I dreamed that I met Lady GaGa.

I love her music.. and that she has the confidence to sport those crazy outfits... but in all honesty, I think meeting her in person would be very strange.  Especially considering that she was hitting on me in my dream.  Awkward much?  Very!

Have you had any strange dreams lately?  What would you think about meeting Lady GaGa in real life?